i was so focused on the future i never realize how good i ever had it
and now im just a loser, changed for the worse and who i am i can't ever grasp it
brown paper bag abuser, cause all i ever wanna do is reminess on how i had it
but why just reminess, ill cut this hair off, im going back to the madness

whats tears up my insides the most......... is that i changed for her
now its like the big j-ache$ roast,,,,, the only thing i can hear is snickering laughter
now im hungry and im mad, get a snickers for this rapper
i been chopping up nutty bars like snickers on a platter

i dont want my old relationships, dont want those stale kisses
i dont want those empty hugs, a sink with no dishes
my lunch made or that girl that use to answer my wishes
i just want my friends back and that passion to get it

im sorry to crew, that i became that goof loser
with nothing to talk about except a broke user
always peddling for a high, always peddling in my mind
the older ive been getting ive grown sick within my mind

thinkin yall are all against me so im pushing through these lines
and i aint talking bout rapping, just tearing these bags of dimes

crush em with my studen card, when i still owe OSAP
trying to find a better way to live, i can't hold that

to embarassed as a person to forgive my ownself
so i burry myself in drugs just forgetting about my health

i had people i looked up to but im tryin to take there belt
cracking beers like stone austin so my heads its got some welts

ive came to the conclusion, that ill die trying to reach
all the goals that i set out, they say life is just a beach

seagulls and garbage just to eat all your old trash
all these rappers eating off the old shit i spit last

ITS BEEN A YEAR SINCE I PLANNED MY FIRST TOUR,
SINCE THOSE LAST 7 DATES I AINT PERFORMED ANYMORE
OFFERS STILL CAME IN, BUT I KEPT SAYING NO
LAST PROJECT WAS NEW TO YOU , TO ME SO OLD

I HAD IT RECORDED ONCE, SITUATION FUCKED UP
HAD A HOMIE THAT WOULD HELP SO I GUESS I LUCKED UP


*****LO CITY,,, CAUGHT THE GREY HOUND UP
RECORDED IT IN 2 WEEKS, AND FULLY SWITCHED MY SOUND UP

I PUT ON SOME TRACKS ON THAT CD…. THAT WERENT IN MY SOUL
BUT DEPICTED MY CREATIONS……. AND SUITED THOSE ROLES

OUT OF ALL THOSE 20 TRACKS I TRULY LOVE ABOUT 4
SO THATS A QUARTER OF GOOD MUSIC THAT IVE GOT TO PERFORM

IT BACKFIRED IN MY FACE, ALL THOSE TRACKS THAT HAD ME BORED
WHERE THE ONES MY FANS ALL LOVED SO IT KEPT THEM WANTING MORE

SO NOW DO I KEEP UP WITH THE FAKE…..AND KEEP A BUZZ GOIN
OR KILL EVERYTHING I BUILT UP CAUSE MY HEARTS NOT WITH ME FLOWIN

RIGHT THING TO SOME, WRONG TO THE OTHERS
I FELT OVERWORKED, UNDERPAID, PRESSED IN AND SMOTHERED

A BREAK TURNED TO A HIATUS, A HIATUS TURNED INTO A DOWNFALL
I GOT LOST INSIDE OF THAT BASEMENT,


use chorous to talk

DEPRESSION IS A BLESSING? IF CONFUSED THEN ASK THIS QUESTION
WHAT INSPIRES YOU TO CHANGE, WHAT INFLUENCES YOUR MSG
HAPPINESS PERFECT LOVE SUNNY DAYS AND FUN
OR IS IT DARKNESS BEING CORNERED AND THERES NO OPTION TO RUN

I FEEL MY BEST CREATIONS COME FROM A BOUNCE BACK
THROW SOME MORE DIRT ON MY GRAVE LIKE WALKING DEAD I AM BACK